I hate work. I went in today to let them know i couldn't work on tuesday because it clashed with one of my exams. The manager yelled at me. she said i didn't work enough. What am i supposed to do, skip my exam? She asked if i can only work weekends i should sort that out and blah blah blah. I've told them more than once that i can ONLY work weekends. They should expect me to be anavailable on week days every now and again because I've said i can't work then. Anyways, I told them that after exams i can pretty much work whenever they want. A while ago, i asked for a week off work so i could come down and visit family and such. When i got back i checked the timetable and they had rostered me on for like 5 shifts that week. I had lets them know well in advance too. I feel really guilty though because I'm going to make a lie and get out of work on saturday because tara's coming down... meh, I'll ask if i can swap a shift... what if they can't find anyone.. does this mean I'll have to work and miss out on seeing tara??
They make me feel so bad, I keep crying and getting depressed about it. I felt like cutting earlier today because of it.. and I've pretty much recovered.. gah, why is it getting to me so bad.. I feel like a horrible person for not working more.
