My weight is poo. Before Tyler and i were together i was at my lowest weight, since then i have gained 12kg.. not only did i gain weight but now i am more than i was before i lost weight! I have to lose 21kg now.. It's so depressing gaining this much weight that it makes me want to fast or restrict. This is just great *cough* because now does it not only lead to bingeing in the end but now i can't get away with it for long enough to make the binges less harmful. It seems lately that i just keep getting bigger and bigger.
I know next year will be ok though because Tyler will watch me like a hawk and i won't be able to get away with bingeing or not eating.
I'm just so sick of feeling this way.
On a more positive note, i don't cut anymore. Sure i feel tempted sometimes but i don't act on the urges anymore.
Also, new years was a joy. We played Burnout 3, Crimson skies, The Sims 2 and watched 2 seasons of black books all while drinking.
~Caity
